Joshua would have been 6 yrs old today. I think I hate the words would, should and all those words that I use when I wish for something that can’t be.

Every year it gets ‘easier’ – but maybe we are busier.

I cry less – but maybe I just cry less in public.

I still can’t look at his pictures without crying. I can’t watch the video and hear his cries. I can’t visit his grave or listen to others talk about it visiting it. I’m ok with that. I hope others are too.