I can’t do this!!
Yes, yes, we all know I’m notoriously bad at keeping secrets! But added to that – this is my journal!! This is where I record my random thoughts to help me understand what I’m feeling. This is where I share my fears and my victories…well, sometimes…sometimes it’s just where I whine and talk about yarn…but I TRY to be deeper than that somedays!
So, here’s what’s up! Tuesday at 4:53pm we got a call. Caller ID said “No Name, No Number” which normally means we would let the call go to voice mail. But the house was pretty chaotic at the time – DH and boys just got home, a friend was just leaving – and I answered it. Thank God I did!!
The man asked for me and said he was Charlie/Charles (it was a blur) from OR DHS. (Wait, you all know that our boys are adopted, right? And, that they are all bio-related, right?) It seems that our birth mom (we call her “Tummy Mommy”) had another baby. A girl. In July. There will be a court date in approximately one month to establish a plan (adoption) for the baby. We need to consider, as family, if we want to be considered.
At one point I looked at Eric to give him a “Do-You-Realize-What-This-Call-Is??” Look and he was on his face. I can’t say if he was praying or crying or both. But we were both terrified.
“What ifs” are flying around us constantly. Do they know how old we are? Do they know we don’t have any girls? Do we know anyone who has a crib? WHY did we get rid of everything? Will triple bunks fit in our house? Will we have to move? Will we need bigger vehicles?
and quieter we ask … Do they know Josh died? Will they trust us? Do we trust us? Is this a joke? Can we do this again? Will they say no after we say yes? Will they determine we are not acceptable?
Today, at J2’s gymnastics – I noticed little girls.
- They are everywhere.
- Their hair is always in their eyes.
- They touch people when they talk to them.
- They sit still.
- They wear pink and little shorts under dresses.
- They ask questions like “do you like my pretty?”
- and they look at you while you tell them “Yes, I do like it.”
This is going to be a long month while we wait for them to contact us again! PLEASE pray for us!!
Man, I kept the secret longer than you did – now I can ask for prayer for you on my blog! YEAH.
Amy,
Just a few things for you.
1) They should trust you and you should still trust you. I know I don’t know everything that has happened but I have seen you with your boys and I think you are a wonderful mom and I have heard how much you love them all.
2) You have a lot of great friends who would be there to support you…in fact, I know some people who could have a crib to get rid of soon (LOL).
3) As for the space issues, don’t worry about them yet. really.
4) Girls can be so fun. And having a little sister is fun. And being a big brother can be fun.
5) Come on, do you know all the fun stuff you could knit for a girl?!?
So, I think this will work out however it is supposed to work out. I am excited for you and your family but I also understand how nerve racking the waiting is. Just know we are all here for you.
I have a crib (and more) in need of a home. 🙂 Glad you spilled the beans so we can share in the excitement! Praying for you…
Perri sent me and I am praying!
Oh Amy, I have chills and tears just reading this. I will keep you in my prayers. I hope this baby girl is meant to be yours.
Praying constantly! Love yall so much and praying for His will!!!!! I’m here if you need to talk or vent or anything!
Triple bunks can be found online and will fit in any home. We ordered plans to build our own from bunkbedsunlimited.com and built them when our kids were about the age of your kids. We used them for about 8 or 9 years and now after much use (and a cross country move) they are squeeky but still very solid. We are replacing them with newer double bunks as we no longer need triples.
You can now order triples online already built.
You do not need a higher than normal ceiling for triple bunks.
I’m excited and praying!
Carla Jo
Amy, I got shivers all over and then started to cry. I don’t know what to say – but that I am praying for you and Eric and will be holding my breath and watching to see what comes next.
xox,
Melanie
OK – thank heavens I have a BILLY :o) – cuz you sure weren’t tellin me…. LOL – just kidding!! Love you and praying!!!!
Hubby and I are praying. I know it’s not the same, but when we found out we were having twins, we had many of the same questions about space etc. God gave us a mini van and people who gave anonymous Target gift cards (and still do 4 years later) for diapers, He gave us a Ford Taurus with the insurance paid so that I could attend church functions with the kids while hubby works. And God gave us Laura when I was alone with no one to help. God is an Ephesians 3:20 God! He will provide. I am hoping this is God’s will for you…even if a few bubbles need to be burst…like girls sitting still or even liking pink! LOL And that sometimes girls are much more difficult than boys! But, I hope you have a lifetime to figure those things out! I love you and will keep praying.
Wow, that’s really exciting. I will certainly be praying.
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I will keep you in my prayers. I would Love a call like this from one of
“tummy” mothers as well. Oh the joy and the fears you must have.
God’s Blessings to you all,
Patty
Amy,
You already know I would say yes! Girls are wonderful and I would LOVE, LOVE, LOVE to sort my totes of little girl clothes and send them your way!! It would give me a reason to sort and a GREAT place to send them!
Love you,
Tricia
Having a girl(7) after 3 boys(27. 26. 16) is awesome!
You get: Conversations, a shopping buddy, a collector of purses, someone who *likes* wearing hairbows(!) ROFLOL!
We are all praying over at PW. Ummm, and of *course* we will have one of our famous “Name Somebody’s Baby COntests! Let’s see. . .Joy, Jazzlyn (in Emma’s class at school), Jada (Heb:wise), Jana (Heb: God is gracious), Janna (Heb:flourishing; Jarah (Heb:honey). . . .
As a mom of 4 girls, I can tell you that you will never be sorry. I so hope htis all works out for you!
OMGoodness! I am so mad at myself for being bad at reading blogs since we started school… Cause I missed your news!!! … I will be praying, that this sweet girl is yours!! (You and Erik are SUCH good parents, so don’t doubt yourself!)