Many of you know we have been having a very rough time in our home for many years. Â We love our kids to bits, but they aren’t easy to parent. Â Over time you start to believe that these struggles are your fault. Â And this is reinforced by every book, every ‘helper’, everyone who doesn’t understand what you are living with. Â Hell, you don’t understand it, how can someone outside your home understand it.
Yes, there are labels, but a label doesn’t come with a fix or an answer. Â And, there are medications, but those don’t always help but might, in fact, cause bigger problems.
Sometimes I feel so alone. Â I honestly quit sharing because I was tired of the ‘just love/pray/believe/do/try more’ comments. Â And, then I stumbled upon some blogs during the darkest days that helped me realize I am not alone.
One of those blog writers wrote a blog this week that I really needed to hear. Â You can read it here. Â Today I am praying that the Lord takes away all the advice I’ve been given about parenting my kids from my mind and that I only hear Him. Â That He removes all the guilt. And my need for resolution. Â That He allow me to remember that I can’t do anything without His strength. Â That I see this life as freedom and not bondage. Â That I don’t worry about those helper voices who don’t live with my children and don’t realize how damaging their advice has been.
Please read the post if you want to understand. I can’t express my heart today.