{"id":10177,"date":"2013-04-25T07:00:57","date_gmt":"2013-04-25T14:00:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=10177"},"modified":"2013-04-25T06:48:18","modified_gmt":"2013-04-25T13:48:18","slug":"i-dont-live-there-anymore","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=10177","title":{"rendered":"I don’t live there anymore"},"content":{"rendered":"

I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122m challenging myself to write more. \u00c2\u00a0To that end, I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve found a site called \u00e2\u20ac\u0153Mama\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s Losin\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 It!<\/a>\u00e2\u20ac\u009d which shares weekly writing prompts. This week I chose this one:<\/p>\n

Look into your archives. What were you blogging about a year ago around this time? Are you still dealing with the same thing? Your thoughts?<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

If you want to join me in this challenge, click the logo at the end of this journal entry!<\/p>\n

I went back in my archives and looked at April 2012. \u00c2\u00a0There isn’t a single post that it’s a tweet. \u00c2\u00a0And, there are lots of Bible verses quoted. \u00c2\u00a0In my life that is a sign that there are things happening which are unbloggable. \u00c2\u00a0And the Bible quotes are reminders to me that I will be ok. \u00c2\u00a0I put them where I will see them as reminders!<\/p>\n

To be honest all of 2012 and most of 2011 are a blur. I remember lots of fear, heart break and anxiety. \u00c2\u00a0There was a time I would jump at any loud noise. \u00c2\u00a0Where I kept my doors locked so that I could control who felt they had a right to be here. \u00c2\u00a0I let them in, but only after I said a quick prayer for peace. \u00c2\u00a0There were nights I was worried I would be murdered in my sleep….who can sleep when you have that fear? \u00c2\u00a0There was lots of anger. \u00c2\u00a0Lots of rage. \u00c2\u00a0And lots of prayer.<\/p>\n

I couldn’t share it here, and still can’t. \u00c2\u00a0In fact there was no place to really share it. \u00c2\u00a0I pulled in and quit going most places. \u00c2\u00a0But I kept going to Knit Night when I could, and those ladies heard some of what was happening. \u00c2\u00a0Bless them for not throwing my depressing butt out! \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n

Yes, 2012 was hard, but I can say that 2013 is really shaping up to be better and I am so thankful for it! \u00c2\u00a0Here is to looking ahead and loving the fact that I don’t live there anymore!<\/p>\n

\"Mama\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s<\/a><\/center><\/p>\n

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