{"id":156,"date":"2005-02-05T10:42:07","date_gmt":"2005-02-05T17:42:07","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=156"},"modified":"2005-02-05T10:42:07","modified_gmt":"2005-02-05T17:42:07","slug":"saturday","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=156","title":{"rendered":"Saturday"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Everyone is home today &#8211; and the sun is shining!  So we are going to get outside and trim some bushes, weed some flower beds and just enjoy the moment.<\/p>\n<p>I hope the sunshine will help my mood.  I look at my boys and can&#8217;t get over the fact that Josh is missing.  He&#8217;d be 2 yrs and 8 mos old.  He&#8217;d be able to hold his own out there with his brothers&#8230;probably screaming just as loud as they are on the trampoline.  <\/p>\n<p>DH wants to do something to recognize 2\/22 &#8211; but I just want to get through it.  He mentioned taking the day off and I would welcome that, but I can&#8217;t go out to the gravesite &#8211; I haven&#8217;t since the first year &#8211; and we can&#8217;t afford to go away anywhere.  Besides, I can miss him here easier than I can away from home.  If I need to sit and cry quietly all day&#8230;what&#8217;s wrong with that?  At least I wouldn&#8217;t look like a fool crying in public.  <\/p>\n<p>But I recognize that we grieve differently and it&#8217;s not all about me.  He needs to put actions into his grief.  It&#8217;s something that I can&#8217;t undestand&#8230;but visiting Josh&#8217;s grave gives him peace &#8211; and making sure there are always flowers there is a big deal to him.  But me&#8230;I want to be alone on the hard days.  I want to write about my loss and then try to leave it there so that I can present a calm demeanor to the family.  <\/p>\n<p>Well, enough of this!  I&#8217;ll try and write later today with an update on all my knitting projects!  God, I can&#8217;t wait for February to end!<\/p>\n<div class=\"sharedaddy sd-sharing-enabled\"><div class=\"robots-nocontent sd-block sd-social sd-social-official sd-sharing\"><h3 class=\"sd-title\">Share this:<\/h3><div class=\"sd-content\"><ul><li class=\"share-facebook\"><div class=\"fb-share-button\" data-href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=156\" data-layout=\"button_count\"><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-pinterest\"><div class=\"pinterest_button\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.pinterest.com\/pin\/create\/button\/?url=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D156&#038;media=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2Fwp-content%2Fuploads%2F2014%2F10%2Fcropped-poppy-150x150.jpg&#038;description=Saturday\" data-pin-do=\"buttonPin\" data-pin-config=\"beside\"><img src=\"\/\/assets.pinterest.com\/images\/pidgets\/pinit_fg_en_rect_gray_20.png\" \/><\/a><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-twitter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/share\" class=\"twitter-share-button\" data-url=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=156\" data-text=\"Saturday\" data-via=\"Knitnmom\" >Tweet<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-tumblr\"><a class=\"tumblr-share-button\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/www.tumblr.com\/share\" data-title=\"Saturday\" data-content=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=156\" title=\"Share on Tumblr\"data-posttype=\"link\">Share on Tumblr<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-print\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-print sd-button\" href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=156\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to print\" ><span>Print<\/span><\/a><\/li><li><a href=\"#\" class=\"sharing-anchor sd-button share-more\"><span>More<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-end\"><\/li><\/ul><div class=\"sharing-hidden\"><div class=\"inner\" style=\"display: none;width:150px;\"><ul style=\"background-image:none;\"><li class=\"share-email\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-email sd-button\" href=\"mailto:?subject=%5BShared%20Post%5D%20Saturday&body=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D156&share=email\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to email a link to a friend\" data-email-share-error-title=\"Do you have email set up?\" data-email-share-error-text=\"If you&#039;re having problems sharing via email, you might not have email set up for your browser. 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