{"id":1696,"date":"2008-11-29T16:35:22","date_gmt":"2008-11-29T23:35:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=1696"},"modified":"2008-11-29T16:35:22","modified_gmt":"2008-11-29T23:35:22","slug":"warning-depression-ahead","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=1696","title":{"rendered":"Warning:  Depression Ahead"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m learning that this time of year I can get very sad.<\/p>\n<p>Eric is decorating.\u00c2\u00a0 He loves all things Christmas.\u00c2\u00a0 In his family Christmas was a part of the &#8220;goody-goody season&#8221; that started on his birthday in early November and included siblings&#8217; birthdays, Thanksgiving and Christmas.\u00c2\u00a0 Nonstop festivities and family.<\/p>\n<p>I have great memories of Christmas too.\u00c2\u00a0 But I also can&#8217;t help but wish Joshua was here too.\u00c2\u00a0 There should be a 6 yr old here in addition to our 1.5, 7, 12 and 13 yr olds.\u00c2\u00a0 Added to my sadness today is that I saw <a href=\"http:\/\/www.osbornz.net\/kids\/joshie.shtml\" target=\"_blank\">Joshua&#8217;s <\/a>picture at my mother-in-laws on Thursday and I didn&#8217;t recognize him.\u00c2\u00a0 How could I not even recognize him?\u00c2\u00a0 The very thought just makes me feel so sad.<\/p>\n<p>Every year at this time I start to get sad about the time we decorate.\u00c2\u00a0 I am learning to just give myself time to grieve and then get on with enjoying the kids and trying to make memories of them.\u00c2\u00a0 So, here is your warning&#8230;.You will probably be hearing a bit more about my grief walk as we go forward.\u00c2\u00a0 I&#8217;m so thankful for a way to process all my emotions.\u00c2\u00a0 Thanks for letting me share them!<\/p>\n<div class=\"sharedaddy sd-sharing-enabled\"><div class=\"robots-nocontent sd-block sd-social sd-social-official sd-sharing\"><h3 class=\"sd-title\">Share this:<\/h3><div class=\"sd-content\"><ul><li class=\"share-facebook\"><div class=\"fb-share-button\" data-href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=1696\" data-layout=\"button_count\"><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-pinterest\"><div class=\"pinterest_button\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.pinterest.com\/pin\/create\/button\/?url=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D1696&#038;media=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2Fwp-content%2Fuploads%2F2014%2F10%2Fcropped-poppy-150x150.jpg&#038;description=Warning%3A%20%20Depression%20Ahead\" data-pin-do=\"buttonPin\" data-pin-config=\"beside\"><img src=\"\/\/assets.pinterest.com\/images\/pidgets\/pinit_fg_en_rect_gray_20.png\" \/><\/a><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-twitter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/share\" class=\"twitter-share-button\" data-url=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=1696\" data-text=\"Warning:  Depression Ahead\" data-via=\"Knitnmom\" >Tweet<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-tumblr\"><a class=\"tumblr-share-button\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/www.tumblr.com\/share\" data-title=\"Warning:  Depression Ahead\" data-content=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=1696\" title=\"Share on Tumblr\"data-posttype=\"link\">Share on Tumblr<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-print\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-print sd-button\" href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=1696\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to print\" ><span>Print<\/span><\/a><\/li><li><a href=\"#\" class=\"sharing-anchor sd-button share-more\"><span>More<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-end\"><\/li><\/ul><div class=\"sharing-hidden\"><div class=\"inner\" style=\"display: none;width:150px;\"><ul style=\"background-image:none;\"><li class=\"share-email\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-email sd-button\" href=\"mailto:?subject=%5BShared%20Post%5D%20Warning%3A%20%20Depression%20Ahead&body=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D1696&share=email\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to email a link to a friend\" data-email-share-error-title=\"Do you have email set up?\" data-email-share-error-text=\"If you&#039;re having problems sharing via email, you might not have email set up for your browser. 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