{"id":178,"date":"2005-02-22T11:39:47","date_gmt":"2005-02-22T18:39:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=178"},"modified":"2005-02-22T11:39:47","modified_gmt":"2005-02-22T18:39:47","slug":"two-year-anniversary","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=178","title":{"rendered":"Two year anniversary"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Today is the second year since we lost our <a href=\"http:\/\/www.osbornz.net\/kids\/joshie.shtml\">son Joshua<\/a> at 8 mos old.  <\/p>\n<p>If he were still alive he&#8217;d be 2 1\/2 years old.  He and J3 (4) would either be the best of friends or the biggest rivals &#8211; and that would probably alternate.  <\/p>\n<p>If he were still alive I&#8217;d still be changing diapers.<\/p>\n<p>If he were still alive DH might still be working at the university.<\/p>\n<p>If he were still alive I wouldn&#8217;t have this lost feeling.<\/p>\n<p>But he&#8217;s not.  Two years&#8230;and I still have to remind myself that he&#8217;s not coming back.  Two years&#8230;and I still can&#8217;t allow myself to look at the pain for very long.  Two years&#8230;and I still wish I could turn back time and done something&#8230;.anything right and still have him here with us.<\/p>\n<div class=\"sharedaddy sd-sharing-enabled\"><div class=\"robots-nocontent sd-block sd-social sd-social-official sd-sharing\"><h3 class=\"sd-title\">Share this:<\/h3><div class=\"sd-content\"><ul><li class=\"share-facebook\"><div class=\"fb-share-button\" data-href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=178\" data-layout=\"button_count\"><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-pinterest\"><div class=\"pinterest_button\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.pinterest.com\/pin\/create\/button\/?url=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D178&#038;media=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2Fwp-content%2Fuploads%2F2014%2F10%2Fcropped-poppy-150x150.jpg&#038;description=Two%20year%20anniversary\" data-pin-do=\"buttonPin\" data-pin-config=\"beside\"><img src=\"\/\/assets.pinterest.com\/images\/pidgets\/pinit_fg_en_rect_gray_20.png\" \/><\/a><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-twitter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/share\" class=\"twitter-share-button\" data-url=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=178\" data-text=\"Two year anniversary\" data-via=\"Knitnmom\" >Tweet<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-tumblr\"><a class=\"tumblr-share-button\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/www.tumblr.com\/share\" data-title=\"Two year anniversary\" data-content=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=178\" title=\"Share on Tumblr\"data-posttype=\"link\">Share on Tumblr<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-print\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-print sd-button\" href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=178\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to print\" ><span>Print<\/span><\/a><\/li><li><a href=\"#\" class=\"sharing-anchor sd-button share-more\"><span>More<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-end\"><\/li><\/ul><div class=\"sharing-hidden\"><div class=\"inner\" style=\"display: none;width:150px;\"><ul style=\"background-image:none;\"><li class=\"share-email\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-email sd-button\" href=\"mailto:?subject=%5BShared%20Post%5D%20Two%20year%20anniversary&body=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D178&share=email\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to email a link to a friend\" data-email-share-error-title=\"Do you have email set up?\" data-email-share-error-text=\"If you&#039;re having problems sharing via email, you might not have email set up for your browser. 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