{"id":223,"date":"2005-06-16T18:14:21","date_gmt":"2005-06-17T01:14:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=223"},"modified":"2005-06-16T18:14:21","modified_gmt":"2005-06-17T01:14:21","slug":"sadness","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=223","title":{"rendered":"Sadness"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Tonight is one of those nights&#8230;everything is normal&#8230;.but I notice the loss.  <\/p>\n<p>I wonder what one more boys voice would add to the chaos.  I dream of watching Josh (who would be 3 now) play with J3 (4) in one room while the &#8220;Big Boys&#8221; play the game system in the other.  I pretend I&#8217;m glad there is only three boys to clean up after, try to keep clothed and presentable.  <\/p>\n<p>My head tells my heart that we are doing ok.  But there are nights like tonight where I can see, feel and hear the loss.<\/p>\n<div class=\"sharedaddy sd-sharing-enabled\"><div class=\"robots-nocontent sd-block sd-social sd-social-official sd-sharing\"><h3 class=\"sd-title\">Share this:<\/h3><div class=\"sd-content\"><ul><li class=\"share-facebook\"><div class=\"fb-share-button\" data-href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=223\" data-layout=\"button_count\"><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-pinterest\"><div class=\"pinterest_button\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.pinterest.com\/pin\/create\/button\/?url=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D223&#038;media=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2Fwp-content%2Fuploads%2F2014%2F10%2Fcropped-poppy-150x150.jpg&#038;description=Sadness\" data-pin-do=\"buttonPin\" data-pin-config=\"beside\"><img src=\"\/\/assets.pinterest.com\/images\/pidgets\/pinit_fg_en_rect_gray_20.png\" \/><\/a><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-twitter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/share\" class=\"twitter-share-button\" data-url=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=223\" data-text=\"Sadness\" data-via=\"Knitnmom\" >Tweet<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-tumblr\"><a class=\"tumblr-share-button\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/www.tumblr.com\/share\" data-title=\"Sadness\" data-content=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=223\" title=\"Share on Tumblr\"data-posttype=\"link\">Share on Tumblr<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-print\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-print sd-button\" href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=223\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to print\" ><span>Print<\/span><\/a><\/li><li><a href=\"#\" class=\"sharing-anchor sd-button share-more\"><span>More<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-end\"><\/li><\/ul><div class=\"sharing-hidden\"><div class=\"inner\" style=\"display: none;width:150px;\"><ul style=\"background-image:none;\"><li class=\"share-email\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-email sd-button\" href=\"mailto:?subject=%5BShared%20Post%5D%20Sadness&body=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D223&share=email\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to email a link to a friend\" data-email-share-error-title=\"Do you have email set up?\" data-email-share-error-text=\"If you&#039;re having problems sharing via email, you might not have email set up for your browser. 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