{"id":2928,"date":"2009-10-19T08:01:02","date_gmt":"2009-10-19T15:01:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=2928"},"modified":"2009-10-19T08:01:02","modified_gmt":"2009-10-19T15:01:02","slug":"why-my-heart-needs-a-reality-check","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=2928","title":{"rendered":"Why my heart needs a reality check!"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Well, I just waved goodbye to J3 and Daddy as they left for school.\u00c2\u00a0 Not only was J3 up early today, but he showered and went to bed without complaint last night!\u00c2\u00a0 I&#8217;m trying to be happy for him as he is thrilled to be back with his friends.\u00c2\u00a0 But I&#8217;m so frustrated!\u00c2\u00a0 I want him here with me!\u00c2\u00a0 But just wanting something to be a certain way isn&#8217;t enough reason to keep doing something that isn&#8217;t working.\u00c2\u00a0 It wasn&#8217;t that homeschooling wasn&#8217;t working &#8211; it was!\u00c2\u00a0 But J1 has really directed a lot of his anger at J3.\u00c2\u00a0 The name calling, the shoving, and all the unpleasantness &#8211; it just was not working out.<\/p>\n<p>My head knows that giving the two of them some distance is a good thing.\u00c2\u00a0 My head is VERY, very thankful that we have an option for him to be with Daddy in a wonderful Christ-centered school at no cost to our family.\u00c2\u00a0 My head recognizes that as much as I want to homeschool everyone &#8211; I truly have my hands full with J1 and J2&#8217;s special needs.\u00c2\u00a0 And, now that we are most likely going to be adding more appts to our week, I&#8217;ll be running around even more.<\/p>\n<p>But my heart is sad.\u00c2\u00a0 It wants to keep trying.\u00c2\u00a0 It wants all my little chicks safely in my view.\u00c2\u00a0 It wants to believe that I will somehow develop supermom skills to simultaneously change a diaper, refree a disagreement, teach phonics, prepare the science experiment, clean house, update my work spreadsheet&#8230;and all with a song on my lips and a smile on my face.\u00c2\u00a0 <strong>My heart needs a reality check!<\/strong><\/p>\n<div class=\"sharedaddy sd-sharing-enabled\"><div class=\"robots-nocontent sd-block sd-social sd-social-official sd-sharing\"><h3 class=\"sd-title\">Share this:<\/h3><div class=\"sd-content\"><ul><li class=\"share-facebook\"><div class=\"fb-share-button\" data-href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=2928\" data-layout=\"button_count\"><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-pinterest\"><div class=\"pinterest_button\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.pinterest.com\/pin\/create\/button\/?url=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D2928&#038;media=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2Fwp-content%2Fuploads%2F2014%2F10%2Fcropped-poppy-150x150.jpg&#038;description=Why%20my%20heart%20needs%20a%20reality%20check%21\" data-pin-do=\"buttonPin\" data-pin-config=\"beside\"><img src=\"\/\/assets.pinterest.com\/images\/pidgets\/pinit_fg_en_rect_gray_20.png\" \/><\/a><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-twitter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/share\" class=\"twitter-share-button\" data-url=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=2928\" data-text=\"Why my heart needs a reality check!\" data-via=\"Knitnmom\" >Tweet<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-tumblr\"><a class=\"tumblr-share-button\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/www.tumblr.com\/share\" data-title=\"Why my heart needs a reality check!\" data-content=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=2928\" title=\"Share on Tumblr\"data-posttype=\"link\">Share on Tumblr<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-print\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-print sd-button\" href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=2928\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to print\" ><span>Print<\/span><\/a><\/li><li><a href=\"#\" class=\"sharing-anchor sd-button share-more\"><span>More<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-end\"><\/li><\/ul><div class=\"sharing-hidden\"><div class=\"inner\" style=\"display: none;width:150px;\"><ul style=\"background-image:none;\"><li class=\"share-email\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-email sd-button\" href=\"mailto:?subject=%5BShared%20Post%5D%20Why%20my%20heart%20needs%20a%20reality%20check%21&body=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D2928&share=email\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to email a link to a friend\" data-email-share-error-title=\"Do you have email set up?\" data-email-share-error-text=\"If you&#039;re having problems sharing via email, you might not have email set up for your browser. 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