{"id":301,"date":"2005-12-16T20:03:49","date_gmt":"2005-12-17T03:03:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=301"},"modified":"2005-12-16T20:03:49","modified_gmt":"2005-12-17T03:03:49","slug":"wondering","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=301","title":{"rendered":"Wondering"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Today DH went to Joshua&#8217;s grave.  He goes several times during the year.  He changes the flowers and sometimes puts something there for the holiday.  I don&#8217;t go.  Ever.  I was there on February 29, 2003 when we had his memorial.  Then maybe once more when DH took all of us.  But not since then.  I won&#8217;t go.  That is NOT how I want to memorialize him.  <\/p>\n<p>But DH goes faithfully.  He goes alone.  Does he want to be alone?  What does he do out there?  Am I a bad wife because I don&#8217;t go with him?  <\/p>\n<p>Just wondering&#8230;<\/p>\n<div class=\"sharedaddy sd-sharing-enabled\"><div class=\"robots-nocontent sd-block sd-social sd-social-official sd-sharing\"><h3 class=\"sd-title\">Share this:<\/h3><div class=\"sd-content\"><ul><li class=\"share-facebook\"><div class=\"fb-share-button\" data-href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=301\" data-layout=\"button_count\"><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-pinterest\"><div class=\"pinterest_button\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.pinterest.com\/pin\/create\/button\/?url=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D301&#038;media=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2Fwp-content%2Fuploads%2F2014%2F10%2Fcropped-poppy-150x150.jpg&#038;description=Wondering\" data-pin-do=\"buttonPin\" data-pin-config=\"beside\"><img src=\"\/\/assets.pinterest.com\/images\/pidgets\/pinit_fg_en_rect_gray_20.png\" \/><\/a><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-twitter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/share\" class=\"twitter-share-button\" data-url=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=301\" data-text=\"Wondering\" data-via=\"Knitnmom\" >Tweet<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-tumblr\"><a class=\"tumblr-share-button\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/www.tumblr.com\/share\" data-title=\"Wondering\" data-content=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=301\" title=\"Share on Tumblr\"data-posttype=\"link\">Share on Tumblr<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-print\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-print sd-button\" href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=301\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to print\" ><span>Print<\/span><\/a><\/li><li><a href=\"#\" class=\"sharing-anchor sd-button share-more\"><span>More<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-end\"><\/li><\/ul><div class=\"sharing-hidden\"><div class=\"inner\" style=\"display: none;width:150px;\"><ul style=\"background-image:none;\"><li class=\"share-email\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-email sd-button\" href=\"mailto:?subject=%5BShared%20Post%5D%20Wondering&body=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D301&share=email\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to email a link to a friend\" data-email-share-error-title=\"Do you have email set up?\" data-email-share-error-text=\"If you&#039;re having problems sharing via email, you might not have email set up for your browser. 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