{"id":334,"date":"2006-03-13T20:30:23","date_gmt":"2006-03-14T03:30:23","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=334"},"modified":"2006-03-13T20:30:23","modified_gmt":"2006-03-14T03:30:23","slug":"oh-god-save-me-from-hormones","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=334","title":{"rendered":"Oh God &#8211; save me from hormones"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m so incredibly sad.  Nothing seems to pull me out of it.  I know this is hormones &#8211; but I hate that I have such a big wound that is so easily hurt.  I just want to cry&#8230;but the tears just won&#8217;t come.  Part of me knows that I need the release&#8230;part of me won&#8217;t allow me to give in as I know it&#8217;s 90% hormones.  <\/p>\n<p>Random *sad* thoughts that won&#8217;t leave my mind&#8230;<br \/>\n&#8230;if Josh were alive &#8211; he&#8217;d be a great playmate for Jason (who is often alone).<br \/>\n&#8230;there will be no more babies in this house &#8211; I knew it, but now I accept it.  Doesn&#8217;t mean I&#8217;m happy about it.<br \/>\n&#8230;just because I&#8217;m a Christian doesn&#8217;t mean God will take away this pain.  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