{"id":341,"date":"2006-03-23T09:27:22","date_gmt":"2006-03-23T16:27:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=341"},"modified":"2006-03-23T09:27:22","modified_gmt":"2006-03-23T16:27:22","slug":"well-duh","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=341","title":{"rendered":"Well, Duh!"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I was driving in my car today &#8211; where I do my best thinking \ud83d\ude09 (well, absolute best thinking is when I&#8217;m knitting &#8211; but driving is right up there!)<\/p>\n<p>Anyway&#8230;.I was driving in my car and wondering WHY I was having such a hard time recently.  Normally I think that February (when we actually lost Josh) will be hard.  But then I&#8217;m pleasantly surprised to find out that it&#8217;s not so bad.  But as I reflect back of the three years since losing Josh &#8211; March is definitely a hard time.<\/p>\n<p>And then it hit me &#8211; well, yeah&#8230;those were the hardest days.  Most of February of 2003 we didn&#8217;t have a clue that our life was about to change forever.  We were caught up in the Lacy Peterson case and the crash of Space Shuttle Columbia.  We got the grandchildren together for pictures for my mom&#8217;s birthday &#8211; and got the last, best picture of Josh.  But it was March 2003 that I barely remember.  I was in a fog of pain, guilt and confusion.  Those days were some of the hardest in my life &#8211; dare I say the hardest of my life.<\/p>\n<p>Hmm&#8230;mystery solved.<\/p>\n<div class=\"sharedaddy sd-sharing-enabled\"><div class=\"robots-nocontent sd-block sd-social sd-social-official sd-sharing\"><h3 class=\"sd-title\">Share this:<\/h3><div class=\"sd-content\"><ul><li class=\"share-facebook\"><div class=\"fb-share-button\" data-href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=341\" data-layout=\"button_count\"><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-pinterest\"><div class=\"pinterest_button\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.pinterest.com\/pin\/create\/button\/?url=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D341&#038;media=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2Fwp-content%2Fuploads%2F2014%2F10%2Fcropped-poppy-150x150.jpg&#038;description=Well%2C%20Duh%21\" data-pin-do=\"buttonPin\" data-pin-config=\"beside\"><img src=\"\/\/assets.pinterest.com\/images\/pidgets\/pinit_fg_en_rect_gray_20.png\" \/><\/a><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-twitter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/share\" class=\"twitter-share-button\" data-url=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=341\" data-text=\"Well, Duh!\" data-via=\"Knitnmom\" >Tweet<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-tumblr\"><a class=\"tumblr-share-button\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/www.tumblr.com\/share\" data-title=\"Well, Duh!\" data-content=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=341\" title=\"Share on Tumblr\"data-posttype=\"link\">Share on Tumblr<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-print\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-print sd-button\" href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=341\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to print\" ><span>Print<\/span><\/a><\/li><li><a href=\"#\" class=\"sharing-anchor sd-button share-more\"><span>More<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-end\"><\/li><\/ul><div class=\"sharing-hidden\"><div class=\"inner\" style=\"display: none;width:150px;\"><ul style=\"background-image:none;\"><li class=\"share-email\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-email sd-button\" href=\"mailto:?subject=%5BShared%20Post%5D%20Well%2C%20Duh%21&body=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D341&share=email\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to email a link to a friend\" data-email-share-error-title=\"Do you have email set up?\" data-email-share-error-text=\"If you&#039;re having problems sharing via email, you might not have email set up for your browser. 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