{"id":423,"date":"2006-09-27T16:51:16","date_gmt":"2006-09-27T23:51:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=423"},"modified":"2006-09-28T08:50:53","modified_gmt":"2006-09-28T15:50:53","slug":"depressed","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=423","title":{"rendered":"Depressed"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;ve been depressed for a few days.  I wake up sad.  I mope around the house.  Almost everything I need to do is too much effort.  The things I previously enjoyed don&#8217;t interest me anymore.<\/p>\n<p>I am doing what I did early days of our grief &#8230; getting up and doing what I need to do ANYWAY.  So things are getting done.  I&#8217;m getting up and dressed everyday.  There is a minimal impact on those around me.<\/p>\n<p>But I hate living this way.  I hate that I can&#8217;t shake these feelings and be myself.  I feel like there is a <a target=\"_blank\" href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=41\">blanket of grief<\/a> over me again.  Lord I do NOT want to stay here! Help me do what I need to do.  Help me &#8216;wake up&#8217; emotionally again!<\/p>\n<div class=\"sharedaddy sd-sharing-enabled\"><div class=\"robots-nocontent sd-block sd-social sd-social-official sd-sharing\"><h3 class=\"sd-title\">Share this:<\/h3><div class=\"sd-content\"><ul><li class=\"share-facebook\"><div class=\"fb-share-button\" data-href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=423\" data-layout=\"button_count\"><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-pinterest\"><div class=\"pinterest_button\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.pinterest.com\/pin\/create\/button\/?url=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D423&#038;media=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2Fwp-content%2Fuploads%2F2014%2F10%2Fcropped-poppy-150x150.jpg&#038;description=Depressed\" data-pin-do=\"buttonPin\" data-pin-config=\"beside\"><img src=\"\/\/assets.pinterest.com\/images\/pidgets\/pinit_fg_en_rect_gray_20.png\" \/><\/a><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-twitter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/share\" class=\"twitter-share-button\" data-url=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=423\" data-text=\"Depressed\" data-via=\"Knitnmom\" >Tweet<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-tumblr\"><a class=\"tumblr-share-button\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/www.tumblr.com\/share\" data-title=\"Depressed\" data-content=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=423\" title=\"Share on Tumblr\"data-posttype=\"link\">Share on Tumblr<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-print\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-print sd-button\" href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=423\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to print\" ><span>Print<\/span><\/a><\/li><li><a href=\"#\" class=\"sharing-anchor sd-button share-more\"><span>More<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-end\"><\/li><\/ul><div class=\"sharing-hidden\"><div class=\"inner\" style=\"display: none;width:150px;\"><ul style=\"background-image:none;\"><li class=\"share-email\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-email sd-button\" href=\"mailto:?subject=%5BShared%20Post%5D%20Depressed&body=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D423&share=email\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to email a link to a friend\" data-email-share-error-title=\"Do you have email set up?\" data-email-share-error-text=\"If you&#039;re having problems sharing via email, you might not have email set up for your browser. 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