{"id":5426,"date":"2011-06-01T08:23:21","date_gmt":"2011-06-01T15:23:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=5426"},"modified":"2011-06-01T08:23:21","modified_gmt":"2011-06-01T15:23:21","slug":"conflicted","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=5426","title":{"rendered":"Conflicted"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Part of me wants to keep this post light and cheery&#8230;.but the reality is that parenting my kids is hard. \u00c2\u00a0Not because of what they have done\/are doing but because of what has been done to them. \u00c2\u00a0Parenting them means I need to always be &#8220;on&#8221;&#8230;.always considering what the need is, not reacting to the behavior.<\/p>\n<p>The past few days with just two special kids was a nice break. \u00c2\u00a0And, I&#8217;m SO excited that my big boys are going to be back. \u00c2\u00a0But big boys mean bigger behaviors&#8230;.bigger needs. \u00c2\u00a0There is a part of me that dreads their return. \u00c2\u00a0How bad does that sound?! \u00c2\u00a0\ud83d\ude41 \u00c2\u00a0If there are other mom&#8217;s of special kids reading this, I think you might understand. \u00c2\u00a0I pray you are out there, and are praying for me! \u00c2\u00a0I wish I had a support group of other mom&#8217;s with whom I could share these concerns&#8230;.but I don&#8217;t, so I&#8217;m sharing it with you &#8211; my normal friends! \ud83d\ude09<\/p>\n<p>Please pray<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>that I can make their homecoming special &#8211; that they realize how much they were missed and loved!<\/li>\n<li>that the boys will get back into the family groove without too much testing<\/li>\n<li>that we can keep things quiet and calm during the transition back into normal routines<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>Thank you for supporting me in prayer!<\/p>\n<div class=\"sharedaddy sd-sharing-enabled\"><div class=\"robots-nocontent sd-block sd-social sd-social-official sd-sharing\"><h3 class=\"sd-title\">Share this:<\/h3><div class=\"sd-content\"><ul><li class=\"share-facebook\"><div class=\"fb-share-button\" data-href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=5426\" data-layout=\"button_count\"><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-pinterest\"><div class=\"pinterest_button\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.pinterest.com\/pin\/create\/button\/?url=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D5426&#038;media=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2Fwp-content%2Fuploads%2F2014%2F10%2Fcropped-poppy-150x150.jpg&#038;description=Conflicted\" data-pin-do=\"buttonPin\" data-pin-config=\"beside\"><img src=\"\/\/assets.pinterest.com\/images\/pidgets\/pinit_fg_en_rect_gray_20.png\" \/><\/a><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-twitter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/share\" class=\"twitter-share-button\" data-url=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=5426\" data-text=\"Conflicted\" data-via=\"Knitnmom\" >Tweet<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-tumblr\"><a class=\"tumblr-share-button\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/www.tumblr.com\/share\" data-title=\"Conflicted\" data-content=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=5426\" title=\"Share on Tumblr\"data-posttype=\"link\">Share on Tumblr<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-print\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-print sd-button\" href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=5426\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to print\" ><span>Print<\/span><\/a><\/li><li><a href=\"#\" class=\"sharing-anchor sd-button share-more\"><span>More<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-end\"><\/li><\/ul><div class=\"sharing-hidden\"><div class=\"inner\" style=\"display: none;width:150px;\"><ul style=\"background-image:none;\"><li class=\"share-email\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-email sd-button\" href=\"mailto:?subject=%5BShared%20Post%5D%20Conflicted&body=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D5426&share=email\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to email a link to a friend\" data-email-share-error-title=\"Do you have email set up?\" data-email-share-error-text=\"If you&#039;re having problems sharing via email, you might not have email set up for your browser. 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