{"id":832,"date":"2007-11-19T09:05:33","date_gmt":"2007-11-19T16:05:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=832"},"modified":"2007-11-19T09:05:33","modified_gmt":"2007-11-19T16:05:33","slug":"hopeless","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=832","title":{"rendered":"Hopeless"},"content":{"rendered":"<p> <img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/wp-content\/uploads\/2007\/11\/raincloud.gif\" alt=\"raincloud.gif\" align=\"left\" \/>I&#8217;m not doing very well.<\/p>\n<p>I can&#8217;t seem to stop crying.<\/p>\n<p>Last night we watched about 10 min of a movie dealing with a death &#8211; and then I got a message from a mom who lost her son &#8211; and suddenly I could not stop crying.  I went to my room and cried and cried.  J3 came in and tried to make me feel better &#8211; bless him!  When that failed he went to tell Daddy.  I finally went to bed and prayed today would be better.  But so far, I&#8217;m just well-rested, but as sad as I was.<\/p>\n<p>I don&#8217;t want to bore you all with the details&#8230;but please pray that I can get my heart adjusted so that I can do what is necessary for this busy, busy holiday week.<\/p>\n<div class=\"sharedaddy sd-sharing-enabled\"><div class=\"robots-nocontent sd-block sd-social sd-social-official sd-sharing\"><h3 class=\"sd-title\">Share this:<\/h3><div class=\"sd-content\"><ul><li class=\"share-facebook\"><div class=\"fb-share-button\" data-href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=832\" data-layout=\"button_count\"><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-pinterest\"><div class=\"pinterest_button\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.pinterest.com\/pin\/create\/button\/?url=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D832&#038;media=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2Fwp-content%2Fuploads%2F2014%2F10%2Fcropped-poppy-150x150.jpg&#038;description=Hopeless\" data-pin-do=\"buttonPin\" data-pin-config=\"beside\"><img src=\"\/\/assets.pinterest.com\/images\/pidgets\/pinit_fg_en_rect_gray_20.png\" \/><\/a><\/div><\/li><li class=\"share-twitter\"><a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/share\" class=\"twitter-share-button\" data-url=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=832\" data-text=\"Hopeless\" data-via=\"Knitnmom\" >Tweet<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-tumblr\"><a class=\"tumblr-share-button\" target=\"_blank\" href=\"https:\/\/www.tumblr.com\/share\" data-title=\"Hopeless\" data-content=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=832\" title=\"Share on Tumblr\"data-posttype=\"link\">Share on Tumblr<\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-print\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-print sd-button\" href=\"http:\/\/osbornz.net\/amy\/?p=832\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to print\" ><span>Print<\/span><\/a><\/li><li><a href=\"#\" class=\"sharing-anchor sd-button share-more\"><span>More<\/span><\/a><\/li><li class=\"share-end\"><\/li><\/ul><div class=\"sharing-hidden\"><div class=\"inner\" style=\"display: none;width:150px;\"><ul style=\"background-image:none;\"><li class=\"share-email\"><a rel=\"nofollow noopener noreferrer\" data-shared=\"\" class=\"share-email sd-button\" href=\"mailto:?subject=%5BShared%20Post%5D%20Hopeless&body=http%3A%2F%2Fosbornz.net%2Famy%2F%3Fp%3D832&share=email\" target=\"_blank\" title=\"Click to email a link to a friend\" data-email-share-error-title=\"Do you have email set up?\" data-email-share-error-text=\"If you&#039;re having problems sharing via email, you might not have email set up for your browser. 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