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What would I do without you all and your prayers! Each comment and email is such an encouragement. My friend, Ruth, IMed me and convinced me that her 21 yr old could be the substitute teacher this afternoon and we went to lunch. Getting out of the house, eating out, visiting a yarn store and a tea store – it really helped!
Between the IM from Ruth and her arrival, I got a call from the OR caseworker. There was a meeting today – but due to confidentiality issues, I don’t want to share too much. Bottom line is that they will take the case before a judge in late January. Not what I wanted – I was hoping she would be here before Christmas – but just knowing what is going on was such a balm to my soul!
And, it sounds like there are lots of testing/therapies that are going to be necessary in the next few months. To be honest, the foster mom – who I believe was a nurse – is probably her best advocate for all that is needed right now.
I’m no longer in limbo land…and I’m very grateful. Thank you all for being with me through all of this!
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I’m still in this funk. It doesn’t help that I’ve been plagued by bad dreams the last few nights. Horrible dreams where I believe that Joshua is alive, but I’ve misplaced him. I can’t quite remember where he is – but I’m sure that he isn’t really dead. I’m worried that people will find out that I can’t find him so I don’t tell anyone. And, in my dream, no one even remembers him so why would I tell them my worries anyway?
I understand why I dream. I just wish I could leave them when I awake. When I wake up then I have to deal with all the emotions that are in the dream. Anger, fear, sadness.
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The boys and Eric put up the tree today (while I knitted like a crazy woman). Here are a few of my favorite ornaments….I’m sure I’ll find other favorites later.
The first ornament we bought together as a couple. We had been married for 7 mos.
One of the PWs from Thriving in the Fishbowl sent this one to me one year. (We did a ornament exchange each year)
Can’t quite remember who gave this to us – but it makes me laugh!
CC – from Texas – made these for me one year. She organized the ornament exchange each year for Thriving in the Fishbowl.
J2’s first ornament. I think it’s great fun!
Eric collects nativities – but we just got this one! Not sure why it took us so long.
I collect Willow Tree figurines. This is my only WT ornament.
I collect tea cups too – my mom gave this one to me a few years ago. I especially like it because it reminds me of Grandma Davis.
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I gathered my courage last week – Wednesday, to be exact – and called the caseworker. I had to leave a message. I asked her to call me back and let me know what was happening. No call back.
I then called the foster mom. It “wasn’t a good time” but she did tell me they still have ‘Princess’ in their home. She said she would write me. Nothing yet.
I, of course, jump to the conclusion that they don’t want to tell me what I would consider bad news.
I wish we had never gotten the phone call.
I wish there was someway I could have stayed uninvolved emotionally.
I wish I had never seen her photograph.
I wish I hadn’t given her a name in my heart.
I wish I had never told the boys.
I wish someone would contact me so that I can quit wishing.
