Category Archives: Family Life

Well, I took many photos today – and I’m going to share many of them with you – I simply could not decide!

First our day started with J3’s first basketball game at the YMCA. He’s never played a team sport. He hasn’t really a clue about how to play Basketball – but he’s enjoying it!

Here is my little dribbler:

and the spectators:

He’s learning to shoot

And to guard his man

and listen to his coaches

After the game, J2 tried his hand at dribbling

While J1 got his first lessons on the lawnmower

Finally, Aunt Susan and our cousin K came for a visit – Daddy pulled K and J3 in the wagon – they loved it!

Daddy was able to talk J2 and J3 into this – but not J1!! – LOL

J2 found a bit of quiet time in his bunk:

I’m so incredibly sad. Nothing seems to pull me out of it. I know this is hormones – but I hate that I have such a big wound that is so easily hurt. I just want to cry…but the tears just won’t come. Part of me knows that I need the release…part of me won’t allow me to give in as I know it’s 90% hormones.

Random *sad* thoughts that won’t leave my mind…
…if Josh were alive – he’d be a great playmate for Jason (who is often alone).
…there will be no more babies in this house – I knew it, but now I accept it. Doesn’t mean I’m happy about it.
…just because I’m a Christian doesn’t mean God will take away this pain. But I pray He will every day.
…When my boys ask me who’s birthday comes next (secretly hoping it will be theirs) – I wish I didn’t have to say “Josh’s – he would have been 4” I wish I could just not say it, but my heart insists.

So, we are sick … again. But this time we have the added joy of throwing up.

I hate this.