I am so tired of this!!! Eric woke up in the middle of the night shivering. The rest of the night was him moaning and shaking. He’s sick – again.

My throat is feeling very strange – almost but not quite hurting. I. REFUSE. TO. BE. SICK. AGAIN!!!!

Please pray that he will get better quickly and that I will avoid any further illness! Please!

We had a great day at the beach as the following pictures will attest – and a gorgeous weather day to boot! Praise the Lord! However today has been so hard. I guess I’m learning that I can distract myself from the pain, but it waits for me. 🙁 As I’ve said before – grief sucks.

Anyway, here are the pictures of our day…

First we went to Bodega Head – no whales! But the tide was so low and there was so much to see that I forgot to take pictures while we were on the beach. Here is J2 after an hour on the beach – we are ready for lunch!

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Here is my brother, Brett, enjoying the view
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His wife, Christy and niece coming up the trail
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We were hungry now – but we had trouble getting Grammy (my mom) off the beach lol just kidding – it was hard to leave!
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And, here is my mom and my niece enjoying our picnic lunch
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Then we drove a bit south to our favorite beach “Dillons Beach” which is just north of Tamales Bay
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The south part of the beach is all dunes and sandy beach – but the north part is tidepools and great rocks to climb.

J3 enjoyed the sand and my brother and sil’s dog
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Even Kaya loved her first experience with the sand
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J2 was intent on finding sea stars, crabs or whatever he could in the tidepools
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Luckily his uncle loves the ocean too and has lots of experience to share
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Grammy loves tidepools too
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Here are J2’s treasures – which include a dead sand crab and three crab claws (detached) which now stink so bad they are banished to the outdoors!
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It was a truly beautiful day to just sit on a rock and watch the waves
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My Valentine’s Day actually started last night! My boys got me an azalea plant!! I can’t wait to find a spot for it in my yard! Then this morning my DH put a card and a small box (!! Love those small boxes !!) on my laptop. The card was wonderfully mushy and the small box held the most beautiful pearl and gold earrings!! He’s definitely been working on his gift giving skills! lol

A few updates:
I’m finally starting to feel better, but I’m very weak. J2 and I will do about 1 hour of schoolwork and then I have to go lay down for awhile. But I’m so much better than I was and I know I’ll be back to normal…someday! :/

RE the tattoo – thanks for all the comments. I got a call from my brother and he said “Do it! I’ll pay for it!” Yeah right! lol And, plus…I remember when he had green hair! I’m not so sure that his advice will go very far. Ok – just kidding – It actually matters very much to me what my family thinks. Maybe I’ll do it this summer.

And one person asked why I was just focusing on Josh – not the other 3 Js. Well, basically – I can still hold and cuddle those guys – I don’t worry that I will forget them. The tattoo is a feeble attempt to hold onto something special that I lost. However, I have considered 4 J’s in a circle with a heart in the center…maybe someday on my ankle. AACK!! That’s two tattoos!! lol

Seriously, I’m still not sure if I’m going to do it or not….there’s that pain thing to remember too. But it’s something I’m seriously considering. I’ll keep you updated! 🙂

I am going to try to see the doctor today. This sucks. Now, my right ear is closed and I think I have red eye!! Not to mention the ongoing congestion and cough. 🙁 I need a break! I need to get better!

Yes, I’m totally feeling sorry for myself – you would too if this happened to you! 🙁

Yep, we are still sick. J3 (the first to get sick) is better…DH (2nd to fall) is slowly improving but still not back to work – not sure if he can do a whole day yet 🙁 …. J2 (3rd to get sick) is almost normal. J1 and I, who came down with this in the same day, are both dealing with high fevers and lots of aches and pains. So, that’s where we are – not much else happening but whining and watching bad television.