Today is the second year since we lost our son Joshua at 8 mos old.
If he were still alive he’d be 2 1/2 years old. He and J3 (4) would either be the best of friends or the biggest rivals – and that would probably alternate.
If he were still alive I’d still be changing diapers.
If he were still alive DH might still be working at the university.
If he were still alive I wouldn’t have this lost feeling.
But he’s not. Two years…and I still have to remind myself that he’s not coming back. Two years…and I still can’t allow myself to look at the pain for very long. Two years…and I still wish I could turn back time and done something….anything right and still have him here with us.
i can’t even say i know what you are feeling but i do feel my heart breaking for you! i know this must be so hard for you! don’t force youself to do anything you’re not ready for! know that i’m praying for you!
I know that this is a hard day for you. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
words escape me, but i wanted you to know that i’m praying for you and your family.
Please accept my sympathies. I can’t imagine even how hard it must still be for you. –Cordelia from thing-along
Oh Amy… I have no words, but I just want you to know that I am thinking, and praying for you and your family. I still have the candle lit for Joshua, and it’s never coming down.
Love,
Julie
Amy, I was at my retreat so I didn’t get to read this post until today. My heart is with you.
Thanks so much for posting this … I can’t imagine how hard it must be for you — after only knowing your son for 8 months, he will have had a profound impact on your life. Prayers to you! Jenifer PS — I just might join the SAHM ring! (I do work part-time however…)