What do you think about verbalizing? I have a belief that if I say something – it makes it real. But I also know that sometimes just the act of saying something outloud takes it’s ‘power’ away. It’s a conflict I face everytime I try to write here or try to talk about big things.
Maybe they are both true. Maybe when I express my fears they become real…but I also realize they are powerless. When I worry about something it grows until it overshadows everything. But when the words are spoken – they are just words. Even shouted words are not that big. And, I’m never speaking into a void – so someone is carrying part of that scary idea.
There are things I need to talk about … that need to have their power removed. But I’ve got to get over the fear of actually speaking the words….giving the fear validity.
Oh Amy,
The fears are there whether we speak them or not, aren’t they?
It is hard to face the deeper recesses of our hearts when they
have pain in them because it hurts to do it. Sometimes I find
myself allowing my brain to skip over those things that bring
me fear and I realize it is a very cognizant act. I am purposely
sorry – hit enter before I was done. I am purposely avoiding
the thinking of it. But it is still there none-the-less. God is
bigger than all our fears and knows those inward places of pain.
It is only through His touch that true honest reflection and
healing will come. I find such amazing comfort in the Psalms–
really in all His word. I look for it because it is a balm to me
in this very difficult times. He will give you that healing, Amy,
and there is no power over your words or thoughts. You are indwelt
with the power of the Holy Spirit–what can man (or enemy) do to us?
May you *know* His joy and peace and comfort.
Warmly,
Kate