This week we have been transitioning back into our ‘school’ schedule. DH, J1 & J3 are back to commuting to school in another community and J2 and I are home. It’s been hitting me very hard. I’ve been very sad. At first I thought it was because it’s quieter here – and I turned up the music 😉 – but then I realized it’s during times like this that I get a sense of ‘what might have been’. And, that is making me sad.
The practical side of me reminds me that it’s a huge time waster to ponder things beyond my control.
My spiritual side wants me to focus on what I have and what I’ve learned on this journey.
My selfish side simply screams that it’s not fair.
My fearful side is afraid to look too closely at the emotions for fear of falling in and never getting out.
I still wonder how things would have been. I think that is normal. Staying focused on only that wouldn’t be healthy but I think it would be strange if we didn’t wonder about things like that. It’s part of the journey. Love you! Praying for a good week with school!