If you’ve been reading my blog for awhile, you will know that our family was created via adoption.  All four of our children were adopted at different times but are indeed a sibling group.  This is significant because this means that all four had very similar lives in the womb and upon birth.  We are still learning about what their birth mother’s choices means to them.

We are learning about Fetal Alcohol Exposure and it’s affects.  We are learning about autism, oppositional defiance disorder, dyslexia, OCD, development delays, and so much more.

There are days where just living with those things means that there isn’t enough energy to do much more than fall into bed and pray that tomorrow is different. Those days it’s easy to feel hopeless.

Then there are days like today – when someone hears you and gives you a few more things to try and you start to believe we will indeed make it another day, week, month, year.

Today, I have hope.

Sending family off to church so I can recharge in my own way. I have learned that from time to time I need to be completely alone. In my family of extroverts, it can be hard for them to understand, but Hubs is great about helping me get the time when I need it. Looking forward to my teapot, my Bible and quiet for a couple of hours!! I am blessed!

There have been some hard things happening in our home, but from time-to-time I get a small bit of encouragement, and I don’t want to forget them!

  • A few weeks ago our oldest told us that he didn’t think he believed in God or needed God.  I was intially devastated but then I got on my knees.   But twice recently he has said somethings that really encouraged me:
    • When I was whining about the lack of space in our van and saying we needed a bigger vehicle he instantly prayed, “God, Momma wants an upgrade!”  It made me laugh but also blessed me as I realized he knew from Whom that blessing would come from!
    • Yesterday when I was upset about the van not starting and messing up my plan, he turned to me and said, “I don’t worry about things like this Mom.  God will help us fix it.”  I was blessed that he was reminding me that I was not alone!
  • Since experiencing a big cut to our monthly budget his summer, we’ve been having a hard time getting through the month.  Neither of our jobs can give us a raise, so we’ve been trying to cut back on expenses and be wise about our purchases.
    • Yesterday when the van died, Gpa O “just happened” to still have our almost brand new battery from the Ford wagon when it died.  It fit right in and started right up!  And saved us almost $80 for a new one!  And, nothing else was wrong with the van!
    • And, I received word that a retirement plan I forgot about needed to be cashed out or rolled over.  After praying about it – we are going to cash it out to help pay for a few things we need to do (car maintenance, etc) and get our savings back up to a safe level.  I had NO memory of this money and it couldn’t have come at a better time!

I’m sure there are more little encouragements but Sissy has reminded me that mornings naps are not her thing anymore! :(  Well, at least I got my Bible study done and two blog posts typed up!  PTL!

We have been watching videos for Stranger on the Road to Emmaus* each morning.  It is intended for those with little or no Bible knowledge, but we are all learning so much!

In fact, yesterday I had my own Aha! moment.  When I think about Heaven and Eternity I have a hard time understanding what it will be like…and to be honest, sometimes I wondered if I’d be bored. (lol)  But yesterday, while talking about Eternity the speaker said “…we would be outside of time and space.”   And, I realized what that meant.  We won’t be worrying about the clock.  We won’t be planning for the future or worried we had done the right thing in the past.  We will truly be in the moment!

Do you ever get so caught up in something that time just flies by?  I think that will be Eternity for us.  And, I’m looking forward to it!!

* If you are unfamiliar with this book – check out this link.  Here is a description from their site:

This fully illustrated, 304-page book is written for adults and teens who know little or nothing about the Bible. It explains in a straightforward way the greatest themes of the Bible, step by step creating an understanding of sin, substitution and atonement. You yourself may be asking the meaning of these terms, words you’ve heard many times but never quite grasped the full meaning of. These truths are woven through the text as each chapter builds on the previous. By the end, the reader has the foundation needed to understand the importance of Christ’s death and resurrection. The logical teaching of truth from creation to the cross makes for a clear understanding of what the Bible is all about.

Expand your understanding of how the stories of the Old Testament connect with Christ as you share your faith in a clear, non-threatening way with unsaved family and friends.