Oh my word! It’s Thursday – I totally forgot! Thanks Valarie for the reminder! LOL
Here is what I’m thankful for right now….
…this potential job for DH. And, the possibility that it could be permanent. It’s so nice to have hope again!
…my children – who are fighting over a toy. And, that they have toys to be fighting over!
…even though I hate it…I’m thankful for this apartment – where my family can live, fight 🙂 and love!
Dear Amy,Have been wondering how you are all doing, so visited your page. I read your journal and cried with you. I also realized that I need to pray for you more. I know that I struggle with anniversary dates, so I will especially pray for you on these days. I praise the Lord for your saturday with the boys and all the homeschool stuff you got. that is exciting! I will be praying for Eric’s job. I pray with all my heart that you will not have to leave Joshua. It is not silly that you don’t want to leave him. You need to be near him. You need to be able to mourn. You need to be able to go visit his grave and give him flowers and presents at the cemetary. You need to let your tears out. You need to let your anger, sadness and all the other emotions out. Please don’t feel guilty. The breast milk you gave Joshua was the best milk that God ever created. My kids have struggled with allergies and I could barely breast feed. The last baby I was able to breast feed for 4 months and when I stopped i had to put her on a very expensive hypoallergenic formula. The breast milk was the best for her. You did the right thing, and now you can cherish that special bonding time that you had with Joshie.You asked for advise regarding your options at this time. I’m not much of an expert on things, but remember a word of advise from a friend. Lori my former pastor’s wife counseled a friend of mine after loss of a spouse. She told her not to make any major changes for one year after the loss of her husband. She encouraged her to keep things similiar and use the first year for mourning. I know that not changing some things is impossible at times when you have to support a family. Some things you have to change, but I pray you will be able to stay close to Joshie in whatever job God has for Eric. Lori’s counsel was for in a spousal death, but I sure think it applies to the death of a child as well.I love you guys and miss you so much. I have been enjoying reading comments from your on-line friends. I praise the lord for this wonderful group of ladies who pray and support you. I would love to see your gallery of pictures if you can send me the pass word. I’m a bit computer illiterate, What is a Blog? What is a weight loss blog? I feel like a blob so I think I need a weight loss blog:)Did you get your hospital bill paid yet? Can I help you with that? It would help me feel like I was helping. I think God gave me the gift of helping or something. I know praying is important, but I also just want to help out physically as well. Please send me the info.One last thing, I’m sending a big hug, Your friend, Debi