I gathered my courage last week – Wednesday, to be exact – and called the caseworker. I had to leave a message. I asked her to call me back and let me know what was happening. No call back.
I then called the foster mom. It “wasn’t a good time” but she did tell me they still have ‘Princess’ in their home. She said she would write me. Nothing yet.
I, of course, jump to the conclusion that they don’t want to tell me what I would consider bad news.
I wish we had never gotten the phone call.
I wish there was someway I could have stayed uninvolved emotionally.
I wish I had never seen her photograph.
I wish I hadn’t given her a name in my heart.
I wish I had never told the boys.
I wish someone would contact me so that I can quit wishing.
Praying for you!!! (((HUGS!!!)))
I wish you the peace that passes all understanding….I know you know where to go to find it. Don’t you just hate lessons in patience?
I think it’s great that you gathered your courage and made those phone calls. They may not have answers for you, but now you’ve shown that you are still interested and that you won’t be simply blown off (from my outsider’s perspective, that’s how it looks like to me). They led you to believe things would happen fast(er), so you had every reason to tell the boys, name her and get excited about it. I think you’ve done the right things all along. Hang in there! 🙂
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Amy,
I know it is hard, really hard. But it honestly hasn’t been that long. It could be at least 3-6 months (which I can confirm on Monday) for the first hearing to see how bio mom is doing. I know you may not want to hear that but please don’t give up yet.
Hugs,
Ash
If I was in your shoes, I think I’d be feeling the same things. And I truly believe that God is going to bring healing to your heart and give you even more love to invest in others even when it doesn’t make sense to get “emotionally involved”.
Praying for you still. 🙁
(((((HUGS)))))
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Much love to you and your family!