Sorry I’ve not been updating. Eric did indeed lose his job. Feels like we are starting over but we are trying to remain peaceful and leave our worries in the Lord’s hands. We knew that job was temporary…but I was really praying for some peace and stability. I’m not sure we’ll EVER have that. Maybe that will be one of the trials of living a life for the Lord.

I’ll try to update more starting next week. It’s hard to keep to our schedule when Eric is at home with us!

Life seems to be such a struggle. My Dh’s job is not secure and he is making some tough decisions about our life and how we are going to continue. And, I’ve found I’m very angry. So, I’m trying to deal with it since I need to be a team player…not part of the problem.

So, today I found a moment to pull out my journal and only-using-it-on-Sunday-cause-it-makes-me-cry-Bible (how’s that for a lame excuse?). After journaling for awhile I knew I needed to be back in the Word – but had no idea where to start – I asked the Lord to lead me where I would learn more about His characteristics. My Bible fell open to Psalm 27 and as I read it….I got very excited when I read the last two verses:

“I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the Lord.”

I was even more encouraged when I re-read it….David is looking for the Lord’s goodness in THIS life. Not a platitude about our rewards are in heaven, etc. He has faith that the Lord will reveal Himself here on this earth. David encourages us to wait, be strong, let our hearts take courage. That’s where I am right now. Trying to wait and be strong!

“Days go by and still I think of you

Days when I couldn’t live my life without you

Days go by and still I think of you

Days when I couldn’t live my life without you

Without you

Without you

Without you

Without you

Without you”

This is a song that I heard alot during my late nights with Josh. He’d wake up and want to nurse. I didn’t want to fall asleep while holding him and so I’d turn on the tv to VH1 – the theory was it was a tv show that might make me actually stay awake. And, it worked. But now, everytime I hear this song on that stupid car commercial….all I can think about is him and it cuts so deep.

Boy – did this take forever!! I’ve added a family gallery section to our webpage. If you are a family member or friend, send me an email and I’ll send you the user name and password to access it!

Gee, my kids are beautiful! 🙂

I received this via an email list I’m on for grieving parents. It was so uplifting to me today!

I know you’re feeling sad today

because I had to go.

I know you have so many things

that remind you of me so.

And though you cry as you recall

the times you spent with me.

I know your pain would turn to joy

if only you could see.

I’m in Heaven with Jesus now.

We laugh, we sing, we play.

He holds me gently in His arms.

I know no pain today.

And though we’re apart a little while,

Jesus has promised me

He’ll someday bring YOU here

where we’ll live for eternity.

by Lisa Robertson