I wrote this in August of 2003 – today is, again, one of those days:

08/12/2003 Entry: “Blanket of Grief”

I can feel the blanket covering me…

it affects everything I hear…

everything I say…

everything I see.

The blanket makes it hard

for me to enjoy life…

hard for me to care…

hard to do the simplest things.

There are times I feel that

I will be able to get out

from under the blanket,

but then I realize there

are times I don’t want to.

Somedays it’s too hard

to go on…

to enjoy life…

to care.

Those days I pull

my blanket over my head

and let the tears flow.

This is one of those days.

It’s Monday and all I wanna do is knit!! But I’ve got to get J2 through his school work (our CT comes tomorrow) and go to gymnastics and…well, maybe there will be more time than I first thought!

The new issue of Knitty is out today!! Click on the link in the sidebar to read the articles and see the new patterns!

Have a great day y’all – hopefully when I check back in, I’ll have gotten to knit something! 🙂

OH MY GOODNESS!! I never imagined how messed up my life would be just by being chosen for jury duty! But at least now I am done! But I’m sooo behind. Just off the top of my head, I need to do the following…

:: Secure the domain name and webspace for my new webclient – Senor Scott’s Salsa (website coming soon!)

:: Update the W.A.C.H.E. webpage

:: Everything else I do on a daily basis: homeschool J2, laundry, errands, life, more laundry, etc, etc, etc.

So, because I’m so overwhelmed, I don’t do anything! Well, that’s not true….I’ve been knitting and playing with my knitting blog. I need to get motivated …. or is it disciplined? Hmm…whatever it is…I need to get it!