Laughing at myself

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fitbitflex

For Christmas Hubs and I got Fitbit Flex’s.  The idea being we’d not forget to take a pedometer that is on our wrist.  We’ve been enjoying weekly challenges with my sister – who can walk the most M-F  (not me is the answer!) – and other fun incentives. It really has shown me how sedentary I am and motivated me to move.

As you all probably know by now, the daily walking goal for most people is 10,000 steps.  I wanted to work up to that so I set my goal lower.  When you meet your goal, the bracelet vibrates and the lights blink in a pattern.  For the past few days, I’d get out of bed, shuffle to the kitchen and get coffee and my bracelet would start to celebrate.  I knew I hadn’t reached my goal so I thought maybe my bracelet’s time was off or something.

Since it’s raining today, I plugged it in to charge and headed to my dashboard.  Somehow my goal was set for 45 steps!! No problem! I can obviously do that within 5 mins of waking up! LOL

So, I’m back on track now!  For those who want to know – on my own, I’m only walking 3000 steps.  So my first goal was 4000 and now I’m at 5,000 steps.  My ultimate goal is 10,000.  But just as I can’t run a 5k without training and working up to that goal, I can’t do that right now without working up to it!

Another seasonal trigger

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This morning I woke up and realized I was full of dread.

I reviewed my day – what was the trigger? But I didn’t see it.

I reflected on my life and relationships – was there something I needed to give attention?

But again, there wasn’t anything obvious.

As I was standing in my kitchen looking at the grey sky and feeling the cool breeze come in the window, I realized that September is going to be another trigger for me.  Due to the years of stress and emotional trauma – the worst of which happened in September- I need to recognize that the echos of that time of life can suck me into an unhealthy place.  I don’t want to live there anymore.  I need to remember that is not what life is like now and let God carry me.

I need to make healthy choices even though all I want to do is curl up in a ball and sleep.  I need to be sure and eat healthy even though all I want is comfort food.  I need to stay in the Word, even though all I want to do is stay disengaged and get through these days as quickly as possible.  I need to work hard to be present, even though I want to avoid any relationships that might hurt me.

I’ve got my work cut out for me!

“I get by with a little help…”

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I’m not good at asking for help. In fact, there have been times when help was offered and I was too prideful to accept the help. But I’ve been having more and more debilitating headaches. It was affecting every part of my life. So Eric and I took some time to figure out what could change and what needed to stay the same.

Now #3 son is going to the local neighborhood school and getting some services he needed that our charter school could not provide. Our daughter is enrolled in afternoon preschool and in a few weeks will be evaluated to see if she is still on target developmentally or if she might benefit from some therapies. Also, we have a local woman coming in for 2 hours a week to clean. I keep a pretty clean house but knowing that Debbie will clean the floors on Monday allows me to do other things for my family. We won’t always have the money to do this, but we do now and I’m so thankful!

I will admit, it was hard to make these changes. I wanted to be able to do it all on my own. But it was too much and I was starting to suffer from it. Now I have a few more minutes in my day … Minutes I can use to kiss my husband, help one of my kids with their schoolwork, share my thoughts here on this blog again, HAVE complete thoughts again, and just breathe!

Lord, help me to be thankful for the peace when it comes and to accept the help when offered! And, when it’s the right time, please show me to whom I can give help!

Weight Watchers

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A few weeks ago I did something I’ve never done before. I decided to join Weight Watchers.  Well, I take that back, I had tried several years ago to do it online, but I am going to the meetings IRL – and boy, is that a different experience.  WW sets your first few goals for you: first to lose 5% of your body weight, then 10%.  Those numbers don’t really mean much to me – but I’m only 2 lbs from the 5% goal – so that’s sort of fun! 😉

So I was reflecting on what I want for my goals….and here is what I came up with:

  • First goal – lose the grief weight – 15 lbs (only 6.8 lbs to meet that goal!)
  • Second goal – lose the pregnancy weight – 20 lbs – for a total of 35 lbs
  • Third goal – lose the ministry weight – 20 lbs – for a total of 55 lbs
  • Fourth goal – lose the Seminary/newlywed weight – 20 lbs – for a total of 75 lbs
  • Then I will re-evaluate my goals from there! :)

I would appreciate your prayers and encouragement!

 

 

Hey! Look at that – I did it!

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I did a 5k! A few weeks ago a walk of even 1/2 mile would have been beyond me but I did 3.1 miles today and it was invigorating! After the first two miles I feel like I could walk all day!!

These are not glamor shots – not flattering at all in fact – but I really wanted to be sure to record my first 5k!

Before the walk:

After the walk:

Some of the other Pacific Coasters: