I don’t live there anymore

I’m challenging myself to write more.  To that end, I’ve found a site called “Mama’s Losin’ It!” which shares weekly writing prompts. This week I chose this one:

Look into your archives. What were you blogging about a year ago around this time? Are you still dealing with the same thing? Your thoughts?

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I went back in my archives and looked at April 2012.  There isn’t a single post that it’s a tweet.  And, there are lots of Bible verses quoted.  In my life that is a sign that there are things happening which are unbloggable.  And the Bible quotes are reminders to me that I will be ok.  I put them where I will see them as reminders!

To be honest all of 2012 and most of 2011 are a blur. I remember lots of fear, heart break and anxiety.  There was a time I would jump at any loud noise.  Where I kept my doors locked so that I could control who felt they had a right to be here.  I let them in, but only after I said a quick prayer for peace.  There were nights I was worried I would be murdered in my sleep….who can sleep when you have that fear?  There was lots of anger.  Lots of rage.  And lots of prayer.

I couldn’t share it here, and still can’t.  In fact there was no place to really share it.  I pulled in and quit going most places.  But I kept going to Knit Night when I could, and those ladies heard some of what was happening.  Bless them for not throwing my depressing butt out! 😉

Yes, 2012 was hard, but I can say that 2013 is really shaping up to be better and I am so thankful for it!  Here is to looking ahead and loving the fact that I don’t live there anymore!