Today it’s raining – again. [sigh] It’s making me even more mellow and sad. Yesterday my mom called to say that the hospice nurse said Grandma has a number of days left – not weeks as they said earlier this week. Shouldn’t I be sadder? I keep telling myself and others that I’ve already grieved her loss and I really have, but I keep thinking I should be sadder.
I’m so thankful that she was still lucid when Josh was alive. She got to enjoy him when we went to see her weekly. After he died, she could not remember he had died, and each time I visited she’d ask where the baby was. I only visited a few times after that. It was just too hard.
Phil 4:8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
Well, I’m getting off here to think on other things – good things! I hope you all have a chance to think on the gift of the Ressurection!
Amy,
I’m sorry this is confusing for you. I will be praying you will be comforted during this time. Wish I had great wisdom to share with you but if she’s a believer that’s the only thing I can think of that is making a difference for you. When my cousin died it was sad and devastating but not the same as when my grandmother died and I knew that she was not at Peace in Heaven.
May God bless you and comfort you.
Sara