I’m in a funk. Talking about Joshua seems to be the theme today. 🙁 I do ok except when I slow down and peek open the box. This box is a bit like Pandora’s. If I open it too wide I imagine that I will be overwhelmed with all the emotions, grief and pain I keep inside it. However, it must be pointed out that I’m willing to look into it more and more now. I am even realizing there are some good memories in there. But I must NOT wallow in there because there are children out here who need me to function!
Also, I’m in a funk because the OR caseworker seems to have taken a sick day and the foster mom, while giving me some day-to-day information on Princess’ care, said that she doesn’t think we’ll be able to get her for another 60-90 days!!!!?!!! Part of me calmly says “Now, Amy, don’t freak out. Remember that they just went to talk to the DA yesterday to see what they can do to expedite the placement. No one knows what was discussed or decided yet. This is just based on her experience.” And another part of me is … well, freaking out!
And, the meds that stopped the draining have now given me a headache. And, I’m whining. And, irritating myself! So, I’m shutting up now!
(((((HUGS)))))
I think the box needs a pressure valve to let it go from time to time. I am praying for you. Remember that God is control of Princess’ arrival! :o) And God is bigger than legal red tape!
Having some family problems so missed checking in a couple of days. Just know I’m praying about everything!