I have a horrible memory after losing Joshua. I don’t know if it’s the grief or the effects of my sleep apnea before diagnosis…but I can’t remember very much.

Fortunately, my hubby (and his family) are story tellers. So they keep reminding me of funny things my kids do. I was reading Amy’s blog today – one of her kids was too funny and it reminded me a of a funny story. Hope it makes you smile 🙂

When J1 was 4 and J2 was 2 – we were really trying to teach J1 that he had a choice – a good choice or a bad choice – and the choice would have consequences – a good consequence or a bad consequence. We were using simpler language of course! Well, J1 did something – no idea what – and Eric said “Well, J1, what will you choose? (no reply) “You need to choose.” (no reply) Now, getting frustated “Choose!” and little J2 pipes up “Choose nany!!” Nany=Candy! 😉 edited to add – no, candy was never a good consequence, it was just a favorite treat!

Another time – someone (I can’t remember who – my mom? my mil?) said to J1 “Didn’t you hear a little voice tell you that it wasn’t a good idea?” to which he replied “Yeah, J2….but then he did it too!” 😉

I wish I could remember more – maybe I’ll ask Eric to start blogging all our family stories so I don’t have to worry about losing my memories!

If you read my journal you know that my life is about to change – in a big way. In a ‘not-much-time-to-knit’ kind of way.

It is really making me think about what I’m knitting.  I’ve started the Secret of the Stole 2, and I love it. However, I’m only about 70% done with clue 1 and clue 2 was just released.  There are 9 clues total – the last being issued March 19.  If we get CJ in late March – and I can catch up and stay caught up – I could have a stole finished before she gets here!  Because after she gets here – I doubt I can knit lace for a few years.  (pausing for a moment of freaking out!!)

I should work on my boxers – but I’m pretty sure that is something I can do during our upcoming travels and other times when mindless knitting will be the trick.  So I’ll save those for a bit.

Part of me thinks I need to start knitting bibs and diaper wraps and baby socks and all that.  And, part of me is just too afraid.  I know that’s silly…but I’m still a bit afraid.  Even telling myself that if something horrible should happen, that I can donate the items, I am afraid to cast them on.

I guess I’m just thinking out loud again.   But if you have any thoughts or advice, I’d love the feedback!

1)  Do you think it’s too soon to change my header?  Should I wait until she is really here?

2)  I’m not happy with the nickname “Princess” – mainly because it’s too long to type lol and I think she’s going to be spoiled enough without the title too!  So, I thought of some other options

  • Lil Miss
  • Jgirl
  • CJ
  • Missie

But to be honest, I’m not thrilled with any of them or I’d already be using it! LOL  So let me know if you like one of these or if you have another idea.